Life is a (insert word). Things happen and it sucks. It seems like everyone around us is either dying or sick or hurting and it sucks. It hurts more than anything else in this world in my opinion to see other people suffer.
Six years ago my life changed, as I've said over and over and over again. I've never told absolutely anyone what I went through emotionally, though. After I came out of my drugged out dream world, that I don't remember for the most part, I had to face reality. Everyone has always known me as a positive person and thought it was easy for me to go through what I did. That can't be anything but the farthest from the truth. I laid in bed every night for a month wondering what I was going to do with my life. It hurt to lay there, just fighting my emotions in an unknown world.
I can remember this day vividly. I was laying in bed thinking about why this had happened to me. Just watching the lines on the monitor go up and down. Watching the clouds pass slowly in front of the sun. Fading in and out of the dull, grey world I was drowning myself in. The pain I felt inside was indescribable. Then I thought, why does life have to be like this? Full of hurt. Full of pain. Then I realized, it doesn't. In a single thought my life change. My world became brighter.
When life throws you opportunity, grasp it. If you get the chance to do something that you think is crazy or you normally would never do something like that, why not do it? I'm not saying be stupid and ruin your life but do something positive and make your life worthwhile. Its scary to think how unbelievably fast life can be taken and you only get one shot at life so why not give it your best shot. Go new places and meet new people. Take that trip you've been meaning to take. Say hello to a stranger or stand up for something you never have. Don't miss the chance to just be yourself. Just stay positive and have fun. Try to do something different every single day of your life.
The Point-
If your hurting or are lost in life I know exactly what your going through. I've been there. Life is a (insert word), but don't drown yourself in the hurt and anger. Live life to the absolute fullest and chase your dreams. It doesn't matter how crazy they seem. If you don't and you let yourself, someone or something hold you back, you will regret every single day of your life after that. If your not happy then whats the point? Tomorrow do me a favor. Do something you've never done. Just say hello to a classmate you sit beside or go skydive or just take a walk under the stars and get back to being yourself.. Well, I think this is what I've been wanting to post so I hope everyone enjoys it! Have a awesome life and BE YOURSELF!
Thanks to the friend that talked with me. You know who you are.
